Ahh yes there he goes again, playing for "his audience' poor me Bob. He is nothing but a hypocrite and an evil person, no doubt now.

oh yeah let's see "you are the most gorgeous and beautiful woman I've ever had in my life".

Humm did it bother him that I modeled? not at all, let's see after he followed me home when he met me, stalked me for months without me knowing until he confessed it to me...how did he get in touch with me? through my webpage's contact form...he knew then I modeled too and I even asked him when we were together if that was an issue for him because my culture and this are completely different in many aspects and I've been a model for years for photography and fashion shows and his response? no, not at all, I'm proud of my sexy, beautiful girlfriend!"

Yeah it's all a play for the audience, he has to pretend that he's a good guy so appalled that he got photos of me.  Maybe he had his latest victim looking over his shoulder and he has to play the part and pretend. If he was so upset about getting my latest photos by mistake, why does he look at them all the time?

Nothing but hypocrisy...just playing the part for the audience to make himself look good but he knows better and I know better. If I were to be as low as him I could disclose the tasteless things he proposed sometimes and I simply acted like he didn't say it and ignored it; tasteless is the kind of stuff he allowed to happen before me that he knows I would never, ever do nor allow and he said he didn't really like doing that, yeah right, then why do them and allow such disrespect to the sanctity of your home and your marriage?

He was all up for it I did things for him specially and he said that no one ever did what I did for him and he loved every minute of it and everything I'd put on for him. He's a coward, a liar and dishonorable for disrespecting me the way he has and to go as far as doing what he did tonight when those were not intended to go to him but to my friends and my friends only, the ones I trust who appreciate the art of what I do sometimes and not for him to do what he did with them tonight just because he's trying to act like the good guy that he is not just like he played me making me think he was kind, loving, wonderful when in reality he was preying on me, playing me and using me!He was just trying to humiliate me and embarrass me by doing what he did tonight but it didn't work!

What a waste of resources that need to be focused on more important things than "whaaaa I got photos of my ex-girlfriend, I'm worried about my safety!"She's going to jump out of the photos and hurt me!"You know I'm really sick and tired and fed up with cowards resorting to play that stupid game just because I'm a martial artist. Martial Arts is NOT about violence and it's not why I do it. I do it for the right reasons so get over it!

He can try to hide things all he wants, God knows what he did to me, how evil he has been, how cruel, careless to the one he said was the love of his life not to mention the fact that he destroyed my life, caused me stress that may have cost our baby's life! Made me lose my apartment, did not pay a penny to help me get this new place and he put me in this situation and he didn't care about his baby, he treated me like an animal screaming at me to go to the hospital because he wasn't a doctor!...yeah hell of a guy. The truth always comes out one way or another and you reap what you sow. This is what he did to me and he knows it, if he didn't want to be known as the cruel jerk that he is, he shouldn't have done what he did...What goes around comes around. He had no right to come into my life to cause me so much pain and treat me the way he has because he wanted to hide the truth...

He is not a good person and doesn't know the word honesty, respect let alone love! He is a liar and a predator. Hah 2 months? boy his memory is really bad, it was more than that...let's see, "time didn't matter because we had been together in another lifetime" according to him, we had known each other in another lifetime and everything was so perfect and we knew each other so well...bla blah blah, yeah all part of his game, his lies that I'm sure he tells all the other women too.

I might write later. Thanks for your messages and emails, you all know the real me and the truth here and who the real liar is and it's definitely not me.

***11:55 p.m. He has the nerve to talk about stalking? hmm let's see who stalked me for months? me stalking? no no, that's his specialty not mine. I have enough problems to waste money and gas on someone who treated me like an animal. I even think twice before going to the store to save gas as much as I can and I'm gonna waste time stalking? give me a break.

I wish someone had warned me about him! I wish I had seen him in those sites before I got involved with him because I loathe personals' sites and what they stand for. Nothing but lies, players and heartbreak comes out of that...Predators having a field day with the desperate and lonely. Stalking? no, that's Bob's specialty. He can play all he wants with all those stupid women, I don't even feel sorry for those that do know about men like him anymore and what they do and they don't care...they will care when players do it to them! What will the latest woman's ex-husband say when he finds out the kind of man she's trying to bring into her kids' lives? Yeah he can go on being pathetic having to pay 14 bucks a month to date a woman, that is truly pathetic...you all know my opinion about those disgusting dating sites and what they stand for and what they promote: lies, dishonesty, promiscuity, heartbreak, cheating. It truly is disgusting that he has to pay 14 bucks a month to talk to a woman and get her in bed.

This is why I'm taking a stand because I've had enough of him doing things like this to hide behind his cowardice because he won't own up to what he did to me and trying to portray me as someone I'm not and God knows how many other women out there he's hurt too. I'm so, so sick of evil people! Someday justice will be done for all the tears I've shed, the pain, the loss of my baby and all the sleepless nights I've had to deal with while he's out acting like the true immoral man he really is. Hypocrite!He's so full of it! I'm so tired of turning the other cheek and I have for the longest time after every single despicable thing he's done to me!

*****10/29/08 1:40 a.m. yep up late but that's been going on for a long time now, having insomnia. I'm very touched by the amount of support from not just my martial arts family including my former master whom I talked to on the phone, my friends and not so close friends who sent me messages on here and my diary about this. Such a liar he is...the way he referred to as him "seeing me" for "only" 2 months when it was more than that and he wasn't seeing me, he referred to me as the love of his life, his future wife and step-mom to Emily...his soul mate, his lover in another lifetime blah blah blah and now I'm just another one he was seeing...only 2 months, right! when he said that time didn't matter and it felt like we were together longer than a lifetime. It wasn't 2 months, boy what the heck does he smoke now that his memory is so bad?Not to mention that he told his family I was the love of his life and that he was going to marry me, his sister told me I was the best thing that ever happened to him; his mom also told me he told them he wanted to marry me.  Oh that's right, I'm a liar and now that didn't happen? I remember the day we went to Sebago with his family and talking with his sister him and I and how we all got teary when she was saying how happy she was for us and he said that his mom pulled him aside and asked him Bob why don't you ask Geneva to move in with you? and he told her that he had already asked me and we were already doing that. I remember the 3 of us all teary talking about this. Yeah I'm just someone he was seeing. And how about him telling everybody the story of how we met too? he actually took me to a restaurant in Cape Porpoise where he had done some work for them and he told me that he told the owners the story and that they said it was the most romantic story ever and that we were definitely meant to be and the owner came out to meet me and said he was right but that I was prettier than he described. Right...I'm just someone he was seeing now. His emails said otherwise, cards, messages. I still have all of that...right. I'm a liar right?

And the last time he spoke to me while driving me home the day I accidentally locked my keys in my car he told me that he "didn't want me to think that what we had wasn't real". Right and now it's just "seeing me for 2 months!" right. Humm there is a huge difference between seeing someone and calling someone your future spouse, the love of your life, the only one, and say that no other woman would ever touch him hah yeah right...I wonder how many have "touched" him since now!Liar!!!

I bet he told all those women they were the same thing and now says he was only "seeing them" how would this latest victim feel to know that she is just a friend? I assume that's what he was referring to because I don't know any of his friends so I have no idea how would I contact them??? it must be his latest "bed friend" because he's gone through quite a few of those "friends with benefits" and even I don't know their names, only that he was "seeing them". This man is truly, truly an evil player who has no respect for other human beings, their lives and feelings oh and not even their kids or even his own daughter because of all the women he's had in and out of her life! My heart breaks for Emily so much...you don't do that to kids!

Nothing but cruel, mean and full of ill intended words come out of his mouth. What goes around comes around and he will have to live with the despicable acts he committed against me! Cold and cruel poor excuse of a man!

He dug his own hole and keeps digging deeper and deeper. His actions have defined him as a person, not me and every time he whines about me, the woman whose only sin was to believe and love him so much and turned the other cheek over and over again; he makes himself look worse and among those he whines to, I'm sure he comes across as the evil jerk he is for doing this to the woman he claimed to have loved so much. Damn right I'm sick of this and I'm not going to take it anymore. He can keep thinking that he's done no wrong and that he can go through life destroying other people's lives, dreams, hearts and feelings. This will stay with him forever and people who don't regret causing so much pain and harm and who turn to such stupid and evil acts to keep hurting someone because they are not man enough to own up to their actions, will get what they deserve sooner or later because in this life, what goes around comes around!

hey Geneva, sorry I missed your call earlier. I must have been upstairs with my son. I put him to bed after we read a little. it was so funny, he said he doesn't want to "grow up". I think he was a little over-tired. Anyways, I'll have to look through your site again tomorrow to find out how to post a message to one of your blogs. I'm heading to bed, I have to be up early tomorrow. don't fret about him. he is a player and is very selfish and self-centered. he doesn't deserve you! You are kind and loving and devoted to the one you are with. He, on the otherhand, only cares about himself. He says all of the right words to make you think he loves you and then his actions disprove everything he says. He is a monster and every woman within 20 miles of Sanford ought to know about his self-serving ways! He picked the wrong girl to "kick to the curb". He should have been a little more careful about your emotions. He is a "dirtbag" in my book, and he is very fortunate that you aren't my sister! I believe that most of the male friends you have echo those same thoughts, and perhaps some of your female friends too! Have a goodnite and don't give this monster another moment of your precious time; he has stole enough from you already and wouldn't even show some compassion over the loss of his and your baby. I was there when you suffered. I gave you the ride to the dentist, back home after, I saw how much pain you were in and still can't figure out for the life of me why he didn't show up that night and then was so angry when you showed up over at his house the following day. I always suspected that he cheated on you and is still running from the guilt, even more so now with you losing your baby. Someday he will reap what he has sown. Maybe this is the beginning? I'll stand by you to the end Geneva to fight this monster and dirtbag. He is a player and will always be a player. You deserve so much more! Feel free to edit and post this to your diary and your blog.

Amen to that Dan!he is a scumbag in my book!I'm sorry I know this is messed up but I had to laugh about him whining about getting your photos by mistake yeah like he was really mad, my take is that he got busted looking at them by that stupid redneck barbie he's seeing now and he had to act like he was mad. lmao he's just pretending, we know he still drools over your photos unless he is gay but i doubt it because you've had gay guys say you make them reconsider their orientation lol what a loser, he's just acting for his audience indeed girl!we all know what he did to you and he's gonna have to live with it!tasteless my ass(yeah mine is literally tasteless lmao)he loves your photos, always has, that's the most ridiculous thing ever. I know what he used to say to you, hah trying to act like he's saint Bob all moral when he allowed all that immoral crap that you told me about, violate his marriage and the fact that he's a horndog, didn't he put in his profile that "erotica was one of his turn-ons" hah!stupid jerk!I thought your photos were beautiful girl I wish I had your body, damn girl!They are far from tasteless you hot latin mamma!Don't even take that crap seriously even though you know better, hell this jerk probably still spanks it while looking at your photos!roflmao

Hey girl I hope you tried to get some sleep. I know you are having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. Listen you have been through a lot all your life and you are the most amazing woman I know. You are brave too and you stand up for what you believe in and you stand up to evil!You've been through serious shit in your country and you went out to protest that asshole Noriega back in the day and you had to run for your life through the streets when his jerks attacked the crowds.You lived through all that shit and I think your so freaking brave for that and more things you have stood up against. I'm so proud of you for posting that blog on myspace speaking out about who this scumbag really is and if others want to be stupid and believe he's an angel then that's their problem.It sucks he fooled you and it's not because your stupid, your so damn smart is not even funny!He's just good at playing games and he got to your heart. Someday he will get what's coming to him and I'm sure that one day, he will come back crawling asking you to forgive him for all the bullshit he's put you through. He's an asshole and it's only a matter of time before redneck barbie dumps him too or he does when he gets tired and wants to move on to the next because he's a player.I feel sorry for his little girl though, that's messed up and you love her so much and she loved you too. It's so unfair that she has such a jerk for a dad. Wonderful role model he is...NOT!!!No worries his stupidity really shows and I'm sure they think he's an ass for what he's doing and for what he did to you and for wasting their time.You are respected by many people there even if they are not your close friends, this I do know because an entire martial arts community has your back.Keep your chin up Bob is a loser desperate to get out of the own mess he created.It's his own doing, his own fault for being a cruel prick. Things like that don't go unnoticed and remember it's a small town and even people you don't even know already know who that jerk is and what he did I'm sure. I used to live in a small town, I know what it's like trust me!hang in there, your a good person and this jerk is gonna have to deal with all the evil shit he did!

Hi Gene, I haven't read enough, I will, I promise. But what I've read so far, it is so sad to know that this things still happens to nice people like you. But keep you positivism your courage to live your life, to keep similing, to keep you beautiful, because you are. You know that you can call me, and that you count on me, my home is yours, please don't doubt that and if I can help in something, I'll do, starting with my ear over the phone, do not hesitate to give me a call.
I love you, I miss you, it has been a long long time since we saw each other the las time, it would be very nice if we can meet again some day.
Stay focus on your things, and don'l let bad thing affect your integrity and your passion to live, you have your son and your family.
I love you
Mariluccie:)

Hi, i read your post a couple of days ago, You know, you've told me quite a bit about how badly Bob hurt you, but until i read that post, i never actually fully understood the true depths of how deeply to the core he devastated you. I can assure you that one day(hopefully very soon) you will be the one smiling, and Bob will be the one sitting alone wondering where he went wrong, then one day, he will realise that he went wrong by wronging you. Guys and girls like Bob are the ones in life that will wake up one day, and see they are getting older and are truely alone in life, but by the time they see it, they have hurt so many people, that nobody will want them anymore. You on the other hand have a son who loves you, friends who adore you and would do anything within their power for you(me included).

Bob with these calls to the cops is like the boy who cries wolf, one day he's going to have a real emergency, and the cops may just turn a blind eye thinking he's just being an a-hole again. If he does get the cops to read your blog, he's a moron because your blog makes him look bad, it doesnt make you look bad. He seems like he wants to believe you are obsessed with him, maybe him lying to himself that way gives him a rush or something, maybe he thinks he still has power over you, the power to make your life a living hell. Always remember, Bob is a weak minded and weak soul, you are stronger than he'll ever be. You've endured hell and are still standing, he endured pain(his ex wife) and chose to run away from apart of what made him special(you). He's downright, an egotistical, over confident, self obsessed fool who will be miserable, just dont let him bring you down with him Geneva, you are better than that.

I saw your new pictures. All i can say is Wow, you and Mike Jones work extremely well together. You put yourself together to look enchanting, and he know's how to capture that enchantment perfectly. Have you ever tried sending your portfolio(sp) to magazines? M