Surfrbelle's Diary

From my recent photo shoot with Mike Jones. All Rights Reserved.

Welcome to my diary, please share your thoughts with me. My name is Geneva Hersom AKA Surfrbelle or Surfer Girl. I live in the Sanford/Springvale area in Maine. I'm a mom, martial artist, surfer, model sometimes and cosmetologist. I've been through hell, I've suffered a lot, I've been betrayed in the worst possible way, been hurt beyond anything that words can express and evil deeds got in the way of the man who said he loved me so much, that I was his soul mate, the love of his life and his future wife: Bob McGrath. I still can't believe that he was capable of doing the things he did to me. He has hurt me deeply and has been extremely unfair, EVIL and cruel to me. I write here to let my feelings out and to write about my daily life as a way of sharing it with my friends. I have suffered tremendous losses including a miscarriage. This was Bob's and my baby. I have a broken heart and I'm deeply, terribly hurt and grieving so much for the loss of our baby. What I've gone through and what was done to me is awful. I'm an honest person; integrity, kindness and truth are the core of who I am. I love music, it's a very important part of my life as well as it relates to emotions and feelings.

For more about me, click on MY PROFILE link to your left. The story of how Bob and I met is in my archives here in one entry as well as my webpage in my About Geneva section. I have written about what he put me through as well.

The entries have numbers when you are viewing my diary in the View my friends' messages mode, so just click on View my diary on your left to go back and read the latest entry. This intro is also in my Diary's profile so to read it or if you can't see it just
click HERE My Diary(If YOU WANT TO READ IT) to VIEW my writings.

Yes, that's me in the photos, do not copy them without my permission. Copyright Tom Couture, EJ, Mike Jones and Geneva.

The scars of emotional abuse are worse than those of physical abuse, for physical abuse fades but emotional abuse has a more lasting effect.

Sympathy for the suffering of others and the desire to free them from it =compassion --Dalai Lama

I believe in Karma and those who have harmed me and want to continue to harm me, someday will find out what it's like to be on the other end of bad deeds. What goes around comes around.

Bob and I

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This is the trailer for the upcoming indie movie Bullet 17 where I played a KGB agent. I'm the one in the Black Hummer with the gun being really bad heh heh.

BULLET 17 trailer

My son and I (he's 15)

Links

Caring Unlimited (Domestic Abuse Support)

My personal links

Friends

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Sally Ferguson: Happy New Year!

Bravenet Community Blog: Good morning, Geneva. Thanks so much for your tag.

I've just finished posting the link to your journal; I hope it helps.

Bravenet Community Blog: Hi Geneva. I'm doing some blog-surfing and thought I'd drop in and check out your journal. It looks great, and I've added to my blog list for my next update. On a personal note, I've been where you are, and I'm so sorry you're going through such awful pain. I'll be back again; I've subscribed to your journal...

mommyto2: Great blog. Stay strong. Trust your instincs. I look forward to reading more.

mandi791: Hey girl... I ve never been here before! Cool place... Hope things get better for you!

Krishna: Hi, Blog hopping

Charlotte: Hello. Care to exchange links? Thanks!

oswald: Its not easy to lose someone you love. But must still go on. Don't give up.

Sally Ferguson: Wishing you Easter blessings!

eric: Hi, Blog surfing

Carol: Wow! I am so sorry for your losses. I know that somehow, someway, God will take what was intended for evil and use it for good. How? Only He knows. Please, stop by my journal for encouragment. I will be praying for you.

Monday, November 3rd 2008

6:55 PM

Just another day

Mood:
Music: Wilco-Either Way

I've had a really awful headache all day today that just won't go away. I was thinking a lot about London today...remembering when I went there and how much fun I had there. I want to go back again someday.

I spent a bit of time with my son not long ago. Nikki and I went for a ride to Waterways yesterday to get a coffee for my ex and hot chocolate and a cheese danish for me. Nikki loved going for a ride.

Today's Panama's Independence Day from Colombia commemoration. This is a really fun month there because of this as well as other patriotic events. I do miss those days, they were always so much fun.

Last night was rough for me because of how hard it still is for me to go through all this nightmare and my grief is still very much present every day. I never imagined that I'd be going through such devastating heartbreak in my life nor that the one person I loved and trusted the most could do such terrible things to me. I feel so let down and so hurt. I remember the day I tried to leave him, it was the hardest thing I ever did and it ripped my heart in a million pieces to tell him it was over but he wouldn't let me leave him, with tears in his eyes he said "no, I won't let you leave me, I won't let you throw away what we have! this is too precious to throw away and I will do whatever it takes to fight for you and my daughter..." And I stayed, I didn't leave him, I stood by him, I tried to help him and then he threw me away and destroyed me in the process, destroyed my dreams, my hope, my heart...

On another note, Andrea will be my model and I'm going to do a cut and color on her tomorrow as a demo in Scarborough. I'm really glad about her volunteering for this because this project is very important for me in my growth as a stylist.

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