Surfrbelle's Diary

From my recent photo shoot with Mike Jones. All Rights Reserved.

Welcome to my diary, please share your thoughts with me. My name is Geneva Hersom AKA Surfrbelle or Surfer Girl. I live in the Sanford/Springvale area in Maine. I'm a mom, martial artist, surfer, model sometimes and cosmetologist. I've been through hell, I've suffered a lot, I've been betrayed in the worst possible way, been hurt beyond anything that words can express and evil deeds got in the way of the man who said he loved me so much, that I was his soul mate, the love of his life and his future wife: Bob McGrath. I still can't believe that he was capable of doing the things he did to me. He has hurt me deeply and has been extremely unfair, EVIL and cruel to me. I write here to let my feelings out and to write about my daily life as a way of sharing it with my friends. I have suffered tremendous losses including a miscarriage. This was Bob's and my baby. I have a broken heart and I'm deeply, terribly hurt and grieving so much for the loss of our baby. What I've gone through and what was done to me is awful. I'm an honest person; integrity, kindness and truth are the core of who I am. I love music, it's a very important part of my life as well as it relates to emotions and feelings.

For more about me, click on MY PROFILE link to your left. The story of how Bob and I met is in my archives here in one entry as well as my webpage in my About Geneva section. I have written about what he put me through as well.

The entries have numbers when you are viewing my diary in the View my friends' messages mode, so just click on View my diary on your left to go back and read the latest entry. This intro is also in my Diary's profile so to read it or if you can't see it just
click HERE My Diary(If YOU WANT TO READ IT) to VIEW my writings.

Yes, that's me in the photos, do not copy them without my permission. Copyright Tom Couture, EJ, Mike Jones and Geneva.

The scars of emotional abuse are worse than those of physical abuse, for physical abuse fades but emotional abuse has a more lasting effect.

Sympathy for the suffering of others and the desire to free them from it =compassion --Dalai Lama

I believe in Karma and those who have harmed me and want to continue to harm me, someday will find out what it's like to be on the other end of bad deeds. What goes around comes around.

Bob and I

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This is the trailer for the upcoming indie movie Bullet 17 where I played a KGB agent. I'm the one in the Black Hummer with the gun being really bad heh heh.

BULLET 17 trailer

My son and I (he's 15)

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Caring Unlimited (Domestic Abuse Support)

My personal links

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Sally Ferguson: Happy New Year!

Bravenet Community Blog: Good morning, Geneva. Thanks so much for your tag.

I've just finished posting the link to your journal; I hope it helps.

Bravenet Community Blog: Hi Geneva. I'm doing some blog-surfing and thought I'd drop in and check out your journal. It looks great, and I've added to my blog list for my next update. On a personal note, I've been where you are, and I'm so sorry you're going through such awful pain. I'll be back again; I've subscribed to your journal...

mommyto2: Great blog. Stay strong. Trust your instincs. I look forward to reading more.

mandi791: Hey girl... I ve never been here before! Cool place... Hope things get better for you!

Krishna: Hi, Blog hopping

Charlotte: Hello. Care to exchange links? Thanks!

oswald: Its not easy to lose someone you love. But must still go on. Don't give up.

Sally Ferguson: Wishing you Easter blessings!

eric: Hi, Blog surfing

Carol: Wow! I am so sorry for your losses. I know that somehow, someway, God will take what was intended for evil and use it for good. How? Only He knows. Please, stop by my journal for encouragment. I will be praying for you.

Sunday, November 9th 2008

12:10 PM

Another birthday

Mood:
Music: Memoirs of a Geisha Soundtrack-Sayuri's theme

I'm very tired. I went to bed late last night and I wasn't feeling well but I'm doing much better this morning as far as that. I've been trying to catch up with emails, birthday cards, birthday wishes etc from my friends. I just got a call from my ex-husband to say Happy Birthday, my son is sleeping in I guess, he stayed up late playing a video game with his best friend who was sleeping over at his dad's place.

I might be doing something later, probably going out to eat...or something. I got a few invitations but I don't know how I'm going to be able to decide which friend I'm going out to eat with oh God lol. Such a nice gesture on their part. I will spend some time with my son when he wakes up I guess.

I'm not all that glad about another birthday...I'm kinda bummed out remembering how awful it was last year.

I'll write later when I'm done doing whatever I'll decide to do.

***3:06 p.m. My son and my ex-husband just left, they came over to bring a pizza for lunch and strawberry cheesecake for me which I haven't had in ages and I love so much. They got me the latest expansion for Everquest, my son really wanted me to have it so I can access the new zones with them when we play together. So cute, he really likes me playing this with him! Kris will probably come by later and I'm not sure if we're going to have dinner or whatever. Anything is ok with me and it's nice to spend some time with at least one of my friends today. Still, the sadness in my heart remains...I wish things were different...if only...

I'll write some more later.

***11 p.m. Well I've enjoyed a wonderful Italian dinner with some wine thanks to Kris and a movie as well. Food was so good now I feel like I'm going to explode heh. It's ok, it's my birthday and I still haven't gotten a piece of my strawberry cheese cake heh. It was such a great gesture on Kris' part to make sure I didn't have to be alone on my birthday because last year was awful because of what Bob had done to me. I probably put on a couple of punds after such fantastic dinner!

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