Surfrbelle's Diary

From my recent photo shoot with Mike Jones. All Rights Reserved.

Welcome to my diary, please share your thoughts with me. My name is Geneva Hersom AKA Surfrbelle or Surfer Girl. I live in the Sanford/Springvale area in Maine. I'm a mom, martial artist, surfer, model sometimes and cosmetologist. I've been through hell, I've suffered a lot, I've been betrayed in the worst possible way, been hurt beyond anything that words can express and evil deeds got in the way of the man who said he loved me so much, that I was his soul mate, the love of his life and his future wife: Bob McGrath. I still can't believe that he was capable of doing the things he did to me. He has hurt me deeply and has been extremely unfair, EVIL and cruel to me. I write here to let my feelings out and to write about my daily life as a way of sharing it with my friends. I have suffered tremendous losses including a miscarriage. This was Bob's and my baby. I have a broken heart and I'm deeply, terribly hurt and grieving so much for the loss of our baby. What I've gone through and what was done to me is awful. I'm an honest person; integrity, kindness and truth are the core of who I am. I love music, it's a very important part of my life as well as it relates to emotions and feelings.

For more about me, click on MY PROFILE link to your left. The story of how Bob and I met is in my archives here in one entry as well as my webpage in my About Geneva section. I have written about what he put me through as well.

The entries have numbers when you are viewing my diary in the View my friends' messages mode, so just click on View my diary on your left to go back and read the latest entry. This intro is also in my Diary's profile so to read it or if you can't see it just
click HERE My Diary(If YOU WANT TO READ IT) to VIEW my writings.

Yes, that's me in the photos, do not copy them without my permission. Copyright Tom Couture, EJ, Mike Jones and Geneva.

The scars of emotional abuse are worse than those of physical abuse, for physical abuse fades but emotional abuse has a more lasting effect.

Sympathy for the suffering of others and the desire to free them from it =compassion --Dalai Lama

I believe in Karma and those who have harmed me and want to continue to harm me, someday will find out what it's like to be on the other end of bad deeds. What goes around comes around.

Bob and I

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This is the trailer for the upcoming indie movie Bullet 17 where I played a KGB agent. I'm the one in the Black Hummer with the gun being really bad heh heh.

BULLET 17 trailer

My son and I (he's 15)

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Caring Unlimited (Domestic Abuse Support)

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Sally Ferguson: Happy New Year!

Bravenet Community Blog: Good morning, Geneva. Thanks so much for your tag.

I've just finished posting the link to your journal; I hope it helps.

Bravenet Community Blog: Hi Geneva. I'm doing some blog-surfing and thought I'd drop in and check out your journal. It looks great, and I've added to my blog list for my next update. On a personal note, I've been where you are, and I'm so sorry you're going through such awful pain. I'll be back again; I've subscribed to your journal...

mommyto2: Great blog. Stay strong. Trust your instincs. I look forward to reading more.

mandi791: Hey girl... I ve never been here before! Cool place... Hope things get better for you!

Krishna: Hi, Blog hopping

Charlotte: Hello. Care to exchange links? Thanks!

oswald: Its not easy to lose someone you love. But must still go on. Don't give up.

Sally Ferguson: Wishing you Easter blessings!

eric: Hi, Blog surfing

Carol: Wow! I am so sorry for your losses. I know that somehow, someway, God will take what was intended for evil and use it for good. How? Only He knows. Please, stop by my journal for encouragment. I will be praying for you.

Sunday, November 16th 2008

6:21 PM

I've been busy

Mood:
Music: Seal-Just Like You Said

It's been quite a few days since I've written here. I have been very busy at the salon going through all kinds of stuff and as of tomorrow I will be at the spa. I was at one of the other 3 salons owned by my boss just learning company's procedures, etc.

Alex didn't make it, unfortunately he had to go to NYC to take care of some of his company's emergencies so I'm really disappointed that he couldn't come. We were really looking forward to seeing each other and going out to do things although the weather really sucked this weekend with all the rain we got.

I was thinking of Emily a lot the other day. I miss her so much. It breaks my heart so much. Not much else going on other than I'm glad about being now a part of one of the Top 200 salons of the country and I can't wait to continue growing as a stylist. I'm going to Cambridge MA this Wednesday for a class pretty much all day about Aveda products and so on. I'm looking forward to that.

***9 p.m. I'm having a hard time right now. I actually went to church this morning, it had been so long since I had been to mass and it wasn't like it was back home, this was kinda quick and I didn't feel so comfortable...I was ok about it though but now, because of how I'm feeling at the moment, I think about all those people that supposedly go to church all the time and are self-proclaimed christians and believers yet when they leave the church go on to hurt other people, their feelings, their lives and don't realize that sometimes words can hurt more than anything else and they can have a terrible lasting effect. I think about all those people who are such hypocrites that they claim to be so faithful yet they turn their back on someone who is in need, is sick or is suffering.

I've always said that I'm living in the wrong times and I'm so tired and so disappointed in humanity. People are so quick to cast stones without looking at their own actions. There is so little respect for human beings and their lives.

"Lord love you! when we see what some people do all the week--people who are stanch at church, remember--I can't help thinking there are a good many poor souls who are only Christians at morning and afternoon service.- Charles Dickens"

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