You all know how our story was full of signs and not coincidences and how we came into each other's lives...even after all the horrible things he's done to me, there were many more signs that continue to happen and even on days that had a special significance. I have always gotten those messages and he used to as well. You all remember everything that happened and how he'd always be wherever I'd be all this time on days that meant something or if he was present on my mind more than usual...

I had written about this on my myspace blog and it's still there...when I took a job in Kennebunk, it was because out of all places I had applied to, it was the only place that offered me at job at the time, then my boss dissolved her partnership and I stayed in the new salon under new owners but it didn't work out, it was hard to build clients and you all know about that, then I got offered another job there and I took it but it was always so hard to run into him and many times I'd cry and shake feeling all emotional remembering everything he did to me and even at times, I felt anger too if I knew when I'd bump into him as I was coming home from work, knowing he didn't have Emily and that he was on his way to see one of the many skanks he hooks up with online.

So I was glad to get out of Kennebunk because again, it's such a seasonal town and I needed to make more money and I thought at least I wouldn't have to run into him there too and I got the job I always wanted in Saco and bam...on my way back home, on Rt 111 at the light in the intersection with Rt 35 I saw him going the other way...probably to see yet another skank he hooked up with on those ridiculous online dating sites...

So I thought to myself, great, I get a job elsewhere and now I still have to run into him and what if being where I work I have to also run into whoever the latest flavor of the week is.

No matter how I try and what I do, life keeps pulling him back into my life and I'm so upset and frustrated. I can't forget how much he's hurt me and how he lied to me, betrayed me and on top of that all the nightmare he has put me through, the pain, the agony, the nights I didn't sleep and the nights I'd cry myself to sleep because of losing our baby and because of what he did to me and all the crap that was caused to get him to act this way towards me when all I did was love him.

Emily is in my thoughts too...so much...all those women in and out of her life, she doesn't deserve that and she didn't deserve to have him pull me out of her life either because I love her to pieces and she loved me too...I will always love her and continue to pray for her and I shed many tears for her too. I miss her so much!

So now I don't know if these are more signs or a really bad life's joke but some people say that even though he is a jerk who can't see clearly, who is so blind and cannot see that our coming together was a miracle(even if he used to say so)...

This is also so terrible because I broke down and cried, I mean really cried like I haven't in a long time remembering that cold day I stood at the beach grieving for our baby and he wasn't there and this was on my mind as well as him and all the things he used to say to me, the words of love, promises he broke, the talk about growing old together and I still wonder how? how could he do this to me? how could he call me the love of this life and treat me the way he has????

Hi hun!I know how hard these last days have been for you. Please don't even give this asshole another thought. His small d*ck is going to fall off for sleeping around with all these skanks he's been hooking up with lately. Karma is a bitch and he's going to get what's coming to him just wait and see!

hey sweetie sorry i missed your call again you know how crazy this is down here. I agree with your friend here dont even worry im a guy and i can say this with confidence hes just looking to satisfy his needs and keeps looking for the impossible because no one can compare to you and he knows it babe.hell i know it and i told you this before.hey lori thanks for what you said in that other post and hell yeah it was more than that with geneva, more than fireworks hope she doesnt get mad at me for revealing our intimate details but she knows shes the best lover i ever had and no one can even get close to her and i know that asshole knows that too because Geneva gave him so much more.f***ng fool!doesnt know what hes doing and i bet he wacks it thinking of her and misses her!hell i did for the longest time.dont get mad at me sweetie you know its true!lol