Surfrbelle's Diary

From my recent photo shoot with Mike Jones. All Rights Reserved.

Welcome to my diary, please share your thoughts with me. My name is Geneva Hersom AKA Surfrbelle or Surfer Girl. I live in the Sanford/Springvale area in Maine. I'm a mom, martial artist, surfer, model sometimes and cosmetologist. I've been through hell, I've suffered a lot, I've been betrayed in the worst possible way, been hurt beyond anything that words can express and evil deeds got in the way of the man who said he loved me so much, that I was his soul mate, the love of his life and his future wife: Bob McGrath. I still can't believe that he was capable of doing the things he did to me. He has hurt me deeply and has been extremely unfair, EVIL and cruel to me. I write here to let my feelings out and to write about my daily life as a way of sharing it with my friends. I have suffered tremendous losses including a miscarriage. This was Bob's and my baby. I have a broken heart and I'm deeply, terribly hurt and grieving so much for the loss of our baby. What I've gone through and what was done to me is awful. I'm an honest person; integrity, kindness and truth are the core of who I am. I love music, it's a very important part of my life as well as it relates to emotions and feelings.

For more about me, click on MY PROFILE link to your left. The story of how Bob and I met is in my archives here in one entry as well as my webpage in my About Geneva section. I have written about what he put me through as well.

The entries have numbers when you are viewing my diary in the View my friends' messages mode, so just click on View my diary on your left to go back and read the latest entry. This intro is also in my Diary's profile so to read it or if you can't see it just
click HERE My Diary(If YOU WANT TO READ IT) to VIEW my writings.

Yes, that's me in the photos, do not copy them without my permission. Copyright Tom Couture, EJ, Mike Jones and Geneva.

The scars of emotional abuse are worse than those of physical abuse, for physical abuse fades but emotional abuse has a more lasting effect.

Sympathy for the suffering of others and the desire to free them from it =compassion --Dalai Lama

I believe in Karma and those who have harmed me and want to continue to harm me, someday will find out what it's like to be on the other end of bad deeds. What goes around comes around.

Bob and I

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This is the trailer for the upcoming indie movie Bullet 17 where I played a KGB agent. I'm the one in the Black Hummer with the gun being really bad heh heh.

BULLET 17 trailer

My son and I (he's 15)

Links

Caring Unlimited (Domestic Abuse Support)

My personal links

Friends

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Sally Ferguson: Happy New Year!

Bravenet Community Blog: Good morning, Geneva. Thanks so much for your tag.

I've just finished posting the link to your journal; I hope it helps.

Bravenet Community Blog: Hi Geneva. I'm doing some blog-surfing and thought I'd drop in and check out your journal. It looks great, and I've added to my blog list for my next update. On a personal note, I've been where you are, and I'm so sorry you're going through such awful pain. I'll be back again; I've subscribed to your journal...

mommyto2: Great blog. Stay strong. Trust your instincs. I look forward to reading more.

mandi791: Hey girl... I ve never been here before! Cool place... Hope things get better for you!

Krishna: Hi, Blog hopping

Charlotte: Hello. Care to exchange links? Thanks!

oswald: Its not easy to lose someone you love. But must still go on. Don't give up.

Sally Ferguson: Wishing you Easter blessings!

eric: Hi, Blog surfing

Carol: Wow! I am so sorry for your losses. I know that somehow, someway, God will take what was intended for evil and use it for good. How? Only He knows. Please, stop by my journal for encouragment. I will be praying for you.

Sunday, December 14th 2008

11:15 PM

After the ice storm

Mood:
Music: Deathcab for Cutie-Brothers on a hotel

Power was finally restored at my place this late afternoon. I slept at home those nights I was without power since the storm...staying with Nikki. I had to bundle up a lot and I was very cold. I just didn't want my dog to feel lonely. This morning it got too cold and I got up and went to my ex-husband's like I had been these past days to catch up with my emails, watch movies and what not. He lost power the first day but got it back the following day so he got lucky. This was such an awful storm.

I've been so lost in thoughts these past days in the quiet of all this around me...there are still so many things I wonder and still so much sadness inside of me.

A lot of things are going on and I'm hesitant at times but other times I want to believe that things will get better.

Work is going ok...I love it there...

I've been so wrapped up in several things happening these last days and all I can do is wait...and see. I hope that this project I was considered for pans out...it would be so good and a much needed break in my life after all I've gone through.

So much on my mind...so much...the aftermath of all this, that changed my life forever...yet I cannot hate. Someday...maybe someday there will be a light at the end of the tunnel.

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